On the Creative Impulse & Sharing

collage made by Zelda 

Lately, my Good Spirits have been whispering to me.

I can feel the Veil thinning, the shroud of darkness pulling up around me like a cowl. I feel already sheltered in the shadow, even as I bask in the golden sunlight, crisping at the edges, toasting the vividness into me: reds and yellows and greens.

I have been writing myself whole again, as I’ve done many times in the past. With time and practice, the versions of myself settle down amongst me each day, ready to tell me stories and listen in return. Ready to give and receive love and resources and healing.

Journals are filling in a steady trickle.

I have started feeling the internal impulse - the stirrings of desire to share. I feel a part of me that is tangled in the urgency of our current era. The pacing that feels driven by the collective, writhing desire to stay relevant, to stay productive, to push up into the line of sight that blesses and curses with equal measure.

I don’t wish to be or stay “relevant”, but yet I have these words within me and I long to share them. My Good Spirits speak to me and I long to confide in you, dear Reader, like a trusted friend. I long to say, what do you see in the mirror of our stories? How does your heart feel reflected intimately with mine? I long to compare notes.

When I shared this uncertainty with my guía principal, she shared this message with me:

It is okay to take time and space to differentiate who are you are from who you are not. This is an excellent Emperor trait. Sometimes we must express who we are not to define what we are. Didn’t you once say: Negative space is defined by what it surrounds.

Some profound realizations will come to you over time. Only then does it make sense how to share it. Sharing is something you do with the abundance that you have. Not something that you consider as a priority before all else, nor the purpose for creation. Sharing is the purpose of having something, not of making something.

Creativity is fundamentally an act of connecting matter and inspiration; channeling Spirit through the Self (not as an act of Knowing, but rather as an act of experiencing, feeling, being). This is part of why movements of trance and dance are excellent practices for budding mediums and artists alike… those who are intermediaries between many beings - the Keepers of Spiral Time.

In sharing this, she guided my attention back to the initiatory act of creation within me… How I can yield to the impulse of my own attention, my internal urging towards the center… And how can I let that guide my sharing?

We shall see, dear Reader, we shall see.